Great Emporer An,
I know I’m always the first person to call something “gay,” but I warn you now. This is going to be super fucking gay…
Because this is a letter to you. It’s only for you, though I want everyone to see it. I want everyone to know how amazing you are. I want everyone to be as mesmerized by you as I am.
You are quite possibly the most amazing person that I have ever met. There is not a single flaw in your character. And I think that it is exactly that which keeps me so drawn to you.
I think that it is precisely the fact that you are a good person, that makes me want to be around you so much. And to be a better person.
You’re goals babe.
You have a level head, and yet you feel passion when necessary. You’re booksmart, but not to the extent that it prevents you from having social intelligence. You’re shy, but in the way that makes people want to get to know you.
You’re tons of things. But I think what is most important to me is that you are balanced.
To me, you are balance.
You keep me balanced.
Whenever my reaction is disproportionate to something, you are able to pull me back. I need that.
I fly off the handle pretty easily.
Everyone says that I’m acting different, but in a good way. They say I’m nicer (which fuck all of you because I’ve always been nice). They say I’m calmer. They say I seem more at peace.
And I don’t want to be that stupid movie cliché and say it’s all because of you, but you certainly helped.
So I’m feeling all of this right now, and we’re hitting the sweet spot, while you’re doing an internship in China.
For two whole months.
We will be in different time zones for two whole months. I won’t be able to hug you for two whole months.
I tried to get myself in the mindset of not being able to talk to you whenever before you left, but i wasn’t ready.
I can honestly feel the distance between us.
And it’s sucks. Because I already miss you.
A fucking lot.
And I think I’m falling in love with you.
And you’re in China.
And I have to wait.
Two whole fucking months.
Until you come back.
And I can tell you this in person.
To your face.
And watch the way your eyes light up as you smile.
I can’t wait for you to come home babe. And I mean it when I say home, because even though China is your real home, you belong here, with me.